Yes bloggers, every blogger has their day and I'm just having mine.
I told you Macmillan wanted to hear my story well they've come round with the camera crew to film it. Oh goodness if only I knew how to blowdry my hair properly! I'm sure I needed a bit more blusher too, well anyways you'll be able to see for yourself soon.
So here I am at the kitchen table doing my speed typing (well trying anyway) whilst someone films me, slightly boring if you ask me, I mean who wants to film someone typing. They were filming me in the front room just now and a blooming monster spider ran across, distracting poor tessa (nice lady interviewer)!!!! I was very grown up and didnt scream. Goodness its hard typing under pressure I mean what do I say, it needs to flow, and they are still filming me. Where is my wit it has desserted me. Of I go out to the garden now.....
Tessa just asked me if I'd done this before, NO! I said, it all feels very unnatural, I feel so unprepared and speaking too much, too fast. OK OK what else is new.
Phew they've finally gone and I can rest and let my tummy hang out now.....
More laters, off to plan a party now, I know I know cant help myself, I just love organising charity balls, March 2011, yeah!
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Busy Blogger!!!
Another week bloggers, where does the time go, sure I had a week off but I really cant remember it now. Did I say somewhere in my previous blogs that I would slow down after all of this was over, no probably not knowing me, and just as well, I am a stupid workaholic. So many personal things and people I dont get around to, makes me feel bad about myself, managed to finally get a couple of cards in the post today that I've been meaning to send.
Had my biopsy the other day, he said there is now a dimple where the tumour was, most people want dimples in their cheeks but me I've got to be have clever and have one in my arse! gotta wait a couple of weeks though now to get results, I think its all good, thats what my gut is telling me anyway. Head things not so good though, left a message for the Oncologist, no response, she probably thinks i'm mad. I think its probably stress related, why do i keep focusing on what I dont get done rather than what i do!
Spoke to Macmillan today, she loved my story about the ring of fire playing while I was getting burnt at radiotherapy, how can you live without humour, anyway they are coming next week to talk to me, bit exciting and daunting at the same time, I mean I want to help but does anyone really want to hear what I have to say and what the hell is my hair going to look like more to the point (they are bringing cameras with them) ;-) Hairdresser is busy so I'm on my own! I hate my voice and my picture, not a good start, you never stop being vain unfortunately. I spoke to her about my scar, I am realising more as time goes on how traumatised I am by the stupid thing, more vanity..... We also spoke to the guy from the Kenyan orphanage yesterday, hubby is coming with me, I think we are in for more shock than we think, worse than our wildest dreams but hopefully it will give us perspective. Connor was asking where the tv will go, that is funny, sweet and shocking at the same time, we can build a whole house for less than we would spend on a tv, cant get my head around it. I have so much and I bet those guys would give me whatever they have, I am definitely going to do a blog while I'm there, probably a video one, if you know my hubby you just know its going to be funny seeing how he deals without tv, sky + and an x box!
Well bloggers off to bed shortly so signing off for now. You notice no speak of exercise, maybe tomorrow, wine was better prospect tonight and scoffing a bit of chocolate in front of hubby. Tell you what if I'm going to have to give him a £100 for not eating chocolate for a month (eating everything else in sight instead of course!) dont ask long story and stupid bet I should have known it would just mean he would start eating packets of ginger biscuits instead. I really need to start getting my monies worth, I've been way too nice............so far. x
Had my biopsy the other day, he said there is now a dimple where the tumour was, most people want dimples in their cheeks but me I've got to be have clever and have one in my arse! gotta wait a couple of weeks though now to get results, I think its all good, thats what my gut is telling me anyway. Head things not so good though, left a message for the Oncologist, no response, she probably thinks i'm mad. I think its probably stress related, why do i keep focusing on what I dont get done rather than what i do!
Spoke to Macmillan today, she loved my story about the ring of fire playing while I was getting burnt at radiotherapy, how can you live without humour, anyway they are coming next week to talk to me, bit exciting and daunting at the same time, I mean I want to help but does anyone really want to hear what I have to say and what the hell is my hair going to look like more to the point (they are bringing cameras with them) ;-) Hairdresser is busy so I'm on my own! I hate my voice and my picture, not a good start, you never stop being vain unfortunately. I spoke to her about my scar, I am realising more as time goes on how traumatised I am by the stupid thing, more vanity..... We also spoke to the guy from the Kenyan orphanage yesterday, hubby is coming with me, I think we are in for more shock than we think, worse than our wildest dreams but hopefully it will give us perspective. Connor was asking where the tv will go, that is funny, sweet and shocking at the same time, we can build a whole house for less than we would spend on a tv, cant get my head around it. I have so much and I bet those guys would give me whatever they have, I am definitely going to do a blog while I'm there, probably a video one, if you know my hubby you just know its going to be funny seeing how he deals without tv, sky + and an x box!
Well bloggers off to bed shortly so signing off for now. You notice no speak of exercise, maybe tomorrow, wine was better prospect tonight and scoffing a bit of chocolate in front of hubby. Tell you what if I'm going to have to give him a £100 for not eating chocolate for a month (eating everything else in sight instead of course!) dont ask long story and stupid bet I should have known it would just mean he would start eating packets of ginger biscuits instead. I really need to start getting my monies worth, I've been way too nice............so far. x
Sunday, September 12, 2010
A month without a blog!!!
Well almost, what is going on with the world, call myself a blogger! I guess my excuse is that I have been mega busy and I guess although now I reflect I actually have done a lot it didnt feel like it until now.
So what has been going on then since my bootcamp. Well i'm a bit quicker since I did that first run around Virginia Water, 8 minutes quicker to be precise but I must say I haven't done as much running as I promised myself. Quite a bit of walking and other exercise though so all is not lost, well not yet anyway. We've just come back from a week in Cornwall (cant believe it finally came, I remember so vividly planning it months ago and writing about it in my blog), we took the uber cool camper van and went and stayed at a great place (Retallack Resort), definitely recommend it, the flow rider is great fun. My partner in crime from the bootcamp (Michelle) was with me for the weekend plus Annabelle and Nick and all the kids of course. Such fun, didnt do a lot apart from drinking to be honest but never mind, and I didnt do much exercise during the week either, well three exercise classes (in the smallest sweatiest studio you've ever seen with mental marie getting us all banging into each other, oh yes that was just me and betty) and some walking, i thought we would be walking for miles but we really didnt have the time with the whole flowrider thing ;-) I didnt do it, what with the infections,back and all but I would have loved to, made me feel old and boring and untrendy mum but it was lovely watching the smile on connors face.
The weekend before I was so impressed with him, we walked around 12 miles from Sandbanks to Swanage along the cliff path, over beaches etc (even a nudist beach, now that was interesting, men running in the nude, we all flinched at that). So you see bloggers I am starting to do what I promised and showing connor the UK, trouble is its so blooming expensive I might have to give it a break for a month or so, I know i know i could go camping or something and do it on the cheap but if you had seen the weather last monday in cornwall you wouldnt think it was such a good idea trust me!
So health wise bloggers you may wonder what is going on, given i've decided to write another blog it normally means something is going on right. Well yes, I cant seem to get rid of dreaded infections, nothing really bad, just a kind of lingering itchy, yucky feeling, I've had horrid antibiotics that meant I couldnt drink for a week and creams and potions but its still there. I do have my biopsy finally this week though which is a good thing. Tiredness, overwhelming tiredness at the moment, I think maybe the whole treatment thing finally caught up with me. Oh and one last thing, you cant help it, you and those around you get really paranoid whenever you have any little thing, things you would definitely have ignored before but now of course its all potentially cancer. Scary really but i've had this thing going on in my head for the last week or so, like when you turn it too quickly and it jars but even when i havent done it if that makes sense, and the last two days, like mega headache time, yesterday I couldnt do anything and today it kind of went a little bit but has come back with avengence in the last hour or so. I thought it was because I havent been drinking enough water but drunk gallons of the stuff today. So I guess here I am stuck with being a hypochondriac, phil has made me promise to go to the doctors which I cant really not do but I feel stupid I'm sure its nothing, (well 90% of me is), maybe I'll just contact my oncologist and see what she thinks.....
And now on to the good things in life (well apart from my family of course ;-) along with some other lovely ladies from work (and a couple of hairy blokes) we've finalised a trip to go help an orphanage in Kenya at the end of November, something I've wanted to do for such a long time. I've also contacted Macmillan, I said if I could help anyone I would so what better way to do it than through them. No idea what I'm going to do exactly but they are coming to see me at the end of September to hear about my story. ;-) So maybe some more stuff to blog about after all. Sorry it wasnt a funny one today but the head just didnt allow.
Night all.
So what has been going on then since my bootcamp. Well i'm a bit quicker since I did that first run around Virginia Water, 8 minutes quicker to be precise but I must say I haven't done as much running as I promised myself. Quite a bit of walking and other exercise though so all is not lost, well not yet anyway. We've just come back from a week in Cornwall (cant believe it finally came, I remember so vividly planning it months ago and writing about it in my blog), we took the uber cool camper van and went and stayed at a great place (Retallack Resort), definitely recommend it, the flow rider is great fun. My partner in crime from the bootcamp (Michelle) was with me for the weekend plus Annabelle and Nick and all the kids of course. Such fun, didnt do a lot apart from drinking to be honest but never mind, and I didnt do much exercise during the week either, well three exercise classes (in the smallest sweatiest studio you've ever seen with mental marie getting us all banging into each other, oh yes that was just me and betty) and some walking, i thought we would be walking for miles but we really didnt have the time with the whole flowrider thing ;-) I didnt do it, what with the infections,back and all but I would have loved to, made me feel old and boring and untrendy mum but it was lovely watching the smile on connors face.
The weekend before I was so impressed with him, we walked around 12 miles from Sandbanks to Swanage along the cliff path, over beaches etc (even a nudist beach, now that was interesting, men running in the nude, we all flinched at that). So you see bloggers I am starting to do what I promised and showing connor the UK, trouble is its so blooming expensive I might have to give it a break for a month or so, I know i know i could go camping or something and do it on the cheap but if you had seen the weather last monday in cornwall you wouldnt think it was such a good idea trust me!
So health wise bloggers you may wonder what is going on, given i've decided to write another blog it normally means something is going on right. Well yes, I cant seem to get rid of dreaded infections, nothing really bad, just a kind of lingering itchy, yucky feeling, I've had horrid antibiotics that meant I couldnt drink for a week and creams and potions but its still there. I do have my biopsy finally this week though which is a good thing. Tiredness, overwhelming tiredness at the moment, I think maybe the whole treatment thing finally caught up with me. Oh and one last thing, you cant help it, you and those around you get really paranoid whenever you have any little thing, things you would definitely have ignored before but now of course its all potentially cancer. Scary really but i've had this thing going on in my head for the last week or so, like when you turn it too quickly and it jars but even when i havent done it if that makes sense, and the last two days, like mega headache time, yesterday I couldnt do anything and today it kind of went a little bit but has come back with avengence in the last hour or so. I thought it was because I havent been drinking enough water but drunk gallons of the stuff today. So I guess here I am stuck with being a hypochondriac, phil has made me promise to go to the doctors which I cant really not do but I feel stupid I'm sure its nothing, (well 90% of me is), maybe I'll just contact my oncologist and see what she thinks.....
And now on to the good things in life (well apart from my family of course ;-) along with some other lovely ladies from work (and a couple of hairy blokes) we've finalised a trip to go help an orphanage in Kenya at the end of November, something I've wanted to do for such a long time. I've also contacted Macmillan, I said if I could help anyone I would so what better way to do it than through them. No idea what I'm going to do exactly but they are coming to see me at the end of September to hear about my story. ;-) So maybe some more stuff to blog about after all. Sorry it wasnt a funny one today but the head just didnt allow.
Night all.
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